Insanity Is My World

2006-08-24T19:59:00.000+08:00

well... okies... yesterday supposedly was my leave... a friend of mine... reported sick... & the total strength of the manpower was not enough... i woke up like bout 7 plus... called hunny... asked if she out... i wished her good luck & all the best... was worried she got nervous... my plan was to fetch her from the thingy & followed her to the Doc. to get her MC... well... after putting the phone down wif her the station called... in my mind i was hesitated to answer... but well... something tells me it was urgent... so i answered... as i guess... i hv to go back to werk cos of my friend... hmmm... i was damn pissed... the first thing was "OH NO DAMN!!! HUNNY IS GONNA KILL ME!!!!!!!!!" i was like thinking of a way to get out of the mess... but cant i hv no reason wat soever & its NS... so i have to abid to the rule... haiz.... and... i had no cash accept coins... GOSH!!! lucky enough... morning there is always a transport tat sends the previous rota back home n will stop at BOON LAY INTERCHANGE... after putting down the phone wif my SGT ADHA... i msg HUNNY!!! told her the situation... n she didnt reply... i apologise so many times in the msg... i rushed get bath & dress... before going out i msg hunny again... damn i was so so upset & was so scared she might get angry... it always happen to me... wat a luck... msg hunny wif the final msg & off the comp.... Hurried to the INTERCHANGE... when i reached i called my SGT ADHA asked if the transport had gone out... later... HUNNY MSG!!! she wasnt agnry at me cos she was to nervous... lucky me... damn... I LOVE U HUNNY!!! it put a smile on my face... even tho i was pissed off... wasnt in the mood to werk... so i reached werk... ask who was going buy lunch... nobody... ok so i volunteered... had free food there... nie lah... dah takde duit jadi gini lah... hehe.. at werk wif no ciggy... so stressed... & i was later informed there was an outside drill at 2pm... argh!!! wat a day... drill plak tempat bau KAMBING... smell like the ZOO... shitty smell... finish the drill got some refreshements... ok ok... after got back to station i got to do GATE!!! argh!!! 4pm to 6pm... sit & rot there... my day couldnt get worst... called HUNNY to asked if she has gone to the DOC... but she was sleeping... guess she was tired... i got a yell from her... hehe... tat is normal... after gate i played soccer... no mood to play but jus play... at night talk to b... she called like bout 12 plus.... talk to her till 2am... the sleep... she got MC for 2 days so we plan to meet...

so ya... we did meet... she came over... we watch scary movie 4 & the click... i cooked fried rice for her... hehe... jus wanted her to taste my cooking... we talked... joke around... then like bout 4 plus get dressed cos she had to go to sch... her last day... send her till city hall... she sleep in the train... hehe... look so kiut... ok... reach city hall she meet her fren... we say bye bye bye... i forget to give her, her ciggy... ok so i got out of the station... meet her at her sch gave her ciggy then go home... on the way home got a msg from her... She got 2 A's for her paper... wow... so good... nv study still get A's... but i know she did some revison... rite rite HUNNY??? hehe... anyway today was great... k lah... type so much... haha... so long nv update.... keke...

2006-08-06T14:56:00.000+08:00

GOD DAMMIT!!! argh i hate this house wif HIM AROUND!!! was awaken by another bang on the door... heard screams n cries... woke up n rush out... saw my mum pushing n pulling HER HUSBAND OF HERS... DAMMIT!!! saw the bar stools thrown stuff all in a mess... went out of the room he saw me n said " KAU MASOK CAMPUR!!!! " his hand was wanting to punch me n i was waiting for it... my mum pull him back... i rushed to my sis room... her stiff was also in a mess... saw her cying... asked her wat happen.... its jus bcos of her sch books she left at sch keep in the cupboard... time dulu kita sekolah pon simpan dalam cupboard... WTF!!! my sis hug me... i could feel her cry for help... i jus feel like crying but i couldnt... dont wanna show it to my sis... i got to be strong... ARGH!!! my mum talk to me but i tak layan... jus gave her a look... husband like tat also still wan to be together ker??? DAMN!!! tis is not the first time... i jus feel like killing him... i'm asking god for help to give me the strenght i need... haiz... i love my mum alot... but if tis continues... i would rent a house n bring my sister wif me... dont think she could live in this way... i'm so stressed up...

2006-08-06T13:31:00.000+08:00

well okies... i jus woke up... was awaken by the BANG of the door... damn wind... reach home didnt msg HUNNY... cos i jus dont wanna disturb her... things have not been ok for me so far after THAT NIGHT WE TALK... me n my mouth... nothing suprising... haiz... well mayb i was jealous tat was y i said tat... sometimes i jus say stuff WITHOUT THINKING... anyway yesterday sucks at work... got a BIG f#$% from my superior AND AGAIN we TALK AND QUARRELL... gosh.... i'm jus in no mood... If YOU are reading tis i jus wan u to KNOW tat i REALLY LOVE YOU ALOT... n i'm SCARED OF LOSING YOU... its jus normal tat i get jealous... who wouldnt... anyway going back to sleep... i'll be on leave next duty... so another long weekend for me...

2006-08-02T00:26:00.000+08:00

well okies... i'm like in a cold turkey state... havent smoke in 24hrs... last stick was yesterday morning... anyway... did my normal routine... wake up... played the comp... talked to my HUNNY... watch tv... sleep... fetch my sis... play comp... waiting for my HUNNY to call...

anyway... there is one person in the whole world tat i HATE MOST n tat is OMAR... my step dad... always nagging at my mum... well my mum asked me to clean my fan... n i forgot... she nagged at me... ok so i go n clean it... suddenly i hear HIM NAGGING at my mum... gosh... whos is he to nag... saying wat i'm stupid n degil... Gosh... wateva... who does he think he is my dad? NOWAY IN HELL... he is jus a guy my mum married... tat is all.... not realted to me in anyway... had a bad history wif him in the past... me n my bro got beaten up by him n his brothers... imagine... 4 on 2... they wearing helmets n boots... haiz... dont wan to continue... jus imagine my white polo T became all red... u can imagine how bad it was... n worst my mum was there screaming n pleading to stop... haiz... bad memories... i'm still holding on to my anger... one day i would surely brust... he thinks he is the MAN of the house... not werking... doing nothing except eat n sleep n play pool... my mum n me work n pay the house bills... n he jus do nothing... jus anger me... well... jus cant wait to leave tis house...

anyway tat is all... jus need to release my anger.... so stressed out...

2006-07-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

okies... i'm back... hahak... been long since i updated... well mayb cos my life is boring... everyday do the same thing... nothing special... hahak... i've been on leave since the 24th... tat means 8 days of rest day... hahak...

anyway... i jus got home... had a lovely day wif my HUNNY but a very tiring day... so long nv walk²... legs all cramp n weak... hahak... she went on a shopping spree... hahak... we went town... walked the whole stretch... from p.s all the way to far east...(tempat budak budak pasyen!byk plak tu!) she got all she wanted... but i know she wanted more... hahak... nvm... wait i get my pay we go shopping again k... my turn to shop u follow k... had dinner at far east... go meet c her frens... while she was shopping i was bz window shopping... looking at stuff i want to buy when i get my pay!! hahak... HUNNY keep asking me if i want anything... but i said i dont... jus wan her to enjoy shopping... first month she get to enjoy her pay... now tat her school fees are all paid... so ya... had a VERY FUN DAY wif her... THANX HUNNY FOR A LOVELY DAY... didnt get my good nite kiss... awww... so sad... but nvm... she was in a hurry to meet her parents...

ok... so we went our seperate ways... look at her till cant been seen... she huh... walked on the road... haiz... make me worried only... anyway i walked to the mrt station at somerset... smoking n limping... hahak... (leg very pain!) well as usual the train is packed... n i think at tanjong pagar... this group of PUNKS boarded... them wif their jackets n tight jeans n boots... n there were like squeezing n stepping on my lil' feet... ouch!! lucky they say sorry... haiz... this youngsters... got one wear red checked skirt somemore... n its a guy... gosh.... ingat american ker??? anyway... i got a sit... palyed game on my hp all the way to boon lay... hehe... reach home had my bath... feel much more refreshed... n now blogging... well... tat is all for today...

haiz... tomorrow work.... like so lazy.... anyway jus have like 4 more months to go... Woahooo!!! ShakaDooo!!! Counting down.......

2006-05-12T22:01:00.000+08:00

Well... i'm back... hahak... jus change my skin... the old skin made my comp lagging & i couldnt even log in... anyway i'm back... ok... yesterday slept at 4 teman my bro main game... then woke up like bout 1pm tis afternoon... Min called & asked to meet up... been a long time since i meet him... so ya i meet him... went gek poh to have our lunch then we talk crapz... hahah... played arcade... then talk more crapz... went home like bout 6 plus... he had to meet up his gf... reach home saw my niece nadhrad... played wif her... so long nv c her... then played xbox... haha... kindda simple day... working tomorrow... my left shoulder n my neck hurts still after tat stupid excercise at M.O.S... well jus need to rest more... k lah update more the day after tomorrow...

2006-05-06T21:10:00.001+08:00

Well... I'm back... Its been so long since i updated my blog... Been kindda bz & lazy... Not really much happened since i was gone... Still the same old routine... Mayb only one... On duty it was on the 24th or the 27th... I forgot at like bout 11 plus at night we were asked to go to PASIR GUDANG at Johor to help them fight fire... I was one of them... Feel so lucky... But then reach there nv do anything... Gosh waste of time... Very long journey... Like bout 2hrs plus to go & another 2 hrs plus to go back... Reach station like bout 6 plus... Got pics but wif my fren... Later i get wait i upload it... Well now feeling sick... Having a bad flu... Deary is kindda upset n angry i guess... Well b... Its jus my nature to ask questions... I know u get irritated by it... But if i wont ask u wont tell... So i ask lor... Haiya... Forget bout it... Mayb i'll jus keep my mouth shut... Well i know there are better guys out there more handsome caring understanding... But is there anyone out there who can love u like i do??? Anyway i'm jus feeling bored... Mayb i should get something to do during my off days... Cant work... Wat can i do???? Anyway my Bdays coming.... 3 more days... Getting older by the day... 6 more months to go till i finish NS... Hmmm... Miss my deary... Well... i guess tat is all for now...

2006-04-15T23:47:00.000+08:00

Well... Today is ME & MYA's ONE YEAR ANNIVESARY!!! Well we had fun!!! Although the day didnt start out good it ended with a bang!!! Hahak... Well we meet at Orchard at bout 3.30... Dir was the last one to reach hahak.... When to LIDO check the time for TAKE THE LEAD but too late... So we decided to watch at THE CATHAY... Near P.S.. But we went to Far East first to but for b's friend some stuff... We took the bus & stop at P.S... Bought the ticket at 5.10... Hahak... I dint take out money luck i did transfer money to b's credit card... Hahak.. After that we went back to P.S to have our meal.... We ate L.J.S... Time check it was 5.10... Made our way to the cinema... By the time we reach the show had just started... It was a nice show... Recommended to all who likes dancing... Hehek... After the show we went to City Hall... Went 7-11 bought DRINKS!!! I bought Amsterdam... B & Dir bought some other drinks... JD cola, Bercadi peach & Vodka resberry... Went to sit near the MEMORIAL place there... Sat & drink... All were tipsy after drinking... Hahak... Been a long time since i drank... Well then send Dir to Toa Payoh then took the cab send B home... Well it was a WONDERFUL DAY!!! Enjoy myself wif B at teh end of the nite... Took the cab home... The cab driver talking to me the whole journey back home... Talk bout wat i was doing told him i was serving my ns as a firefighter the he ask me so much question bout it... Well tat is it... Very tired wanna talk to B then sleep... Well HAPPY ANNIVESARY B!!! Love u alots... Muacks!!! Thanx for a wonderful day!!! Muacks!!!

2006-04-12T13:02:00.000+08:00

Well... Yesterday came back from werk & sleep... Woke up at around 1.30... My sister in law ask me to go J.P to eat... Cos my bro jus get his pay... So i had my shower... Waited for my sister to come home... We when out like bout 3.15... Walked to J.P... We ate at this Thai restraunt i'm not sure wat's the name of the restraunt... If i'm not wrong its Siam Kitchen... Something like tat... Gosh... We ordered alot... Luckily finished everything... It was a great meal... Then after our meal my bro wanted to buy a new hp... WOW!!! He bought Nokia 3250...

After buying his phone & stuff we meet my mum at J.P... Mummy was on the way home... Bro & Maria was going back home to Outram... I'm going meet my Deary at 8 to fetch her from school... Mummy & sis went back home... Bro wanted to sit at RC first... So i followed him... i left RC like bout 7.00 to meet Deary at City Hall... Yahoo!! get to spent time wif her... We sat around at Hougang... Went MacD bought Chocolate Milkshake & bought something to munch on at Old Chang Kee... We sat around & talk... Been a long time since we sat & jus talk spending time together... Hahak... Miss you so much... At bout 10.30 send her home & i made my way back home... Well... It was a great day yesterday... Hehek... Tis Saturday going out wif Deary & her cousin... Hopefully... Gonna have fun... Well tat is it for now...

2006-04-09T19:42:00.000+08:00

Well... 6 more days & counting down to OUR 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!! Yahoo!!! Very excited... Wat should i get for her eh... Hmmm... Well... Really have no idea yet... It's been a long time since i really felt so in love wif someone... Well i'm lucky to have such a WONDERFUL girlfriend like MYA... Most of u say 1 year is long... But i think 1 year is jus a short period of time... It was just like yeasterday we FIRST meet... Hahak...

15 April 2005(Mr & Mrs Cucuu)

Well... That was our first pic taken together using her Hp... Hahak... It was taken outside taka... Anyway this one year we have been together its somehow like a roller coaster ride... Both of us get to know each others good side & bad... Adpt to each other life styles... Its not all smiles & laughters for us... We have our own personal problems... But for me... Wat ever problems i had in the past SHE has always been there for me... Help me thru... 28 January 2006 @ 1.30 a.m. was the first time she wanted a break up... Well i dont blame her cos without my stupidity & irritatingness & all the stupid questions this day wont happen... But then it did... We were back together the next day... Went to Sentosa as we have plan wif her cousins...

But most of the time we have fun together... Walking down MEMORY LANE

Well... I'm madly in love wif you Mya... Life is not jus a straight & smooth road... There are turns & humps... When u on the turns or humps & u think u can handle it... U know i'll always be here for you no matter wat rite darlz... I'll be there for u no matter wat... I'll climb the highest mountaint or swim the deepest sea jus for u... (HAHAH!!! Mcm ye ye je) I think u get wat i meant rite... Hehehk... I hope this love will be here to stay for long... I really appreciate wat u have done for me... I care & love u deary... If u are not here whos gonna laugh wif me at silly ppl... Disturb ppl sleeping in the train... Make lame jokes & laugh... Well... I wish u feel the same way towards me... Lots of love Mohammed...

2006-04-08T21:37:00.000+08:00

Well... Woke up at 10 today... But press the snooze button like bout a few times b4 i really get out from bed... Hahak... Get out from bed & had my shower... Pack my stuff cos plan to go Sentosa wif B & her frens... Msg B asked her if she awake... Played wif baby Nur... Check the time it was 12... Msg B tell her i'm going out... Well no reply from her... So continued wif my journey... It was drizzling when i went out... Took the bus to the interchange... The rain started to get heavier... The wind was so strong... Even getting wet at the platform b4 entering the train... Almost slip & fell... Hahak... Paisey... Well buat muka selengeh ar... Hahak... There was lightning & thunder... When i reach Jurong East @ bout 12.20 there was this lightning & thunder... Gosh it sounded so loud... Everybodys head was like sung into their body... Hahak.. Even me ar... Hehek... Anyway B msg me when i was at dover... Telling me her mum was nagging... Hmm... I cant reply so i jus waited till she called... When i was reaching redhill she called... Asking me where i was... Told her i was reaching redhill... She ask me to go out of the train & turn around... I was like huh?!?!? But i've guessed... She told me her mum & dad was nagging & didnt let her go out... I took a deep breathe & tell her ok... I didnt go out of the station thou... I got down at Tiong Bahru... Still on the phone wif B... She asked me how wat should she do... Well rather not go into details... Took the train back to Boon Lay... Reach home... My mum asked, "Tot u going out??"... Told her last minute change of plans... She said "oh ok..." Ate rice wif my sis... Mummy bought it... After had my ciggy i slept... Woke up like bout 7.30 mummy starts to nag & i woke up.... Had my shower & dinner... Watch tv then b msg said she's online... So i went online to chat wif B to c how she's doing... & update my blog... Hmm... Tomorrow is my last off day... Hahak... Monday blues... Have to work... Well enjoyed my week... Thanx to my B... Hehek... Thanx for a wonderful week B... Although didnt go as planned today... Well i understand aites... Love u Deary... Miss u... Cheer up k Darlz... Always her for u... Muacks!!!

2006-04-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

Well... Jus got back home... Meet my B... Went to play pool wif her... Hehek... Our first time playing pool together... She look cute playing pool... Hahak... If she practise more she will be as good as me... Hehek... Wait we have more session k b... Hahak... Anyway today woke up around 10 plus... B msg me telling me she's going to tumble tots to meet her darlings... Guess she misses them alot... Got off from the bed & brush my teeth & find something to eat... Hahak... Lom mandi dah makan eh... Hehek... While eating my sister in law called... Tell me she's coming... I said ok... When reach reached she ask me to follow her go Jurong Point... So lazy to go... She keep pestering me to go... Finally i gave up & had my shower & followed her to J.P... She wanted to buy for her fren a b'day gift... So i said ok... Became a father for a day... Hahak... So we took the bus to J.P... carried baby Nur & maria my sister in law carried the pram... So reach the interchange put baby Nur in the pram & pushed the pram... Went around J.P go up go down... Cos silly maria dont know wat to get her fren... Finally when John Little & got her fren a perfume... Then went banquet to have our lunch... Had chicken rice... As usual... Hahak... My sister joined us after we finished our lunch... So now i tot we could go home already... But she want to find T-shirt for my bro... Cos they going out tomorrow... Haiya... Must help her choose some more... Cos my bro always like to use my stuff & never return it back to me... So ya... Went around J.P again jus to find a nice T-shirt... Not much variety there... So went back to J.L... Bought his T-shirt from there... Well while finding for his T-shirt i saw a nice bermudas at Giordano... Nice nice... But no money to buy... Nvm lah... Wait until my pay then i'll get it... Hahak... Meet my B at P.S... She looks cute in her new skirt & new top... Hehek... Went for a game of pool... Had fun... Walked to taka to eat cos she got hungry... Had japanese noodle & tako paci... Sat & ate then send her back home... So far i'm enjoying my leave... Hahak... But miss work... Miss my buddies... Well tat's all for today...

2006-04-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

Well... Havent been upadating so here goes... My blog rosak... So this is my new blog... Cos of my new skin i think... Firstly i didnt update cos i was bz doing my own template... Jus for fun... Hahak.... I'm on leave... For two duties straight YaHoOo!!! That means 8 days of free time... Hahak... Was on leave since the 2nd... Be back to work on the 10th... Took leave jus to clear bit by bit... Still got lots more... Hahahk... Anyway didnt really have plans during my leave... Jus slacking at home... Yesterday went wif b to subcourt wif her fren... Nothing serious... Jus that she was a witness to her frens case... Anyway i will update more later...